total ruin

 


my clitty gets so hard when Master Ashton constantly degrades humiliates and exposes me depending on his mood and how much fag tax i give him he can do this 2 or 3 times a day sometimes all day with a break here and there ive lost all confidence self respect and boundaries when im not dressed serving my master and have a reality check i suffer from major anxiety full depression and severe mental health issues thinking of how perverted my life has become how vile and stupid ive become its self destruction at its worst. then becasuse im so isolated i have know one to talk to but master Ashton he tells me this is where i belong and i need to embrace it not fight it he reminds me how desperate i am when i beg him for it and its the only time im truly happy  all the bad things it causes are part of this nightmare addiction and the urges cum rushing back over riding everything and i start again this is my life 


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