my life as a sissyfaggot

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i watch sissy hypno everyday for hours its the only porn i watch so much so its blured my way of thinking i think of my self as a slut who gets fucked not the man who fucks the slut this had to happen sooner or later i blocked it out for years telling my self this was only a fetish i did alone not that it would become my life and the fetish was pretending it wasnt my life its the hardest journey ever i beleave its a curse that takes over and you have no choice but to live with it or end up dead trying not to do it the cost can not be put into words its different for everyone most love it and i bwish i did thats the best way i can describe it a virus that has killed my self respect my self worth and taken my man hood away that i can never get back all for the growing need to feel like a female in everyway a little more everyday i love females i dont think they have any issues its me who has them bigtime im broken a total sissy mess train wreck that never ends its my life now   

ive been crossdressing for 20 yrs slowly sliding further down the rabbit hole. ive never been this far before i have no interest in women anymore i worship cock now i cant get hard for women anymore my cock is a clitty and my clitty gets rock hard when i dress like a slut im a chronic masturbation addict i spend all my time on line jerking of to sissy hypno never cumming. ive sacrafised all the good things and good people in my life i know how damaging this addiction it takes everything leaving me very much alone and broken this is the mindset im left with after yrs of abuise most people with any self respect would never end up like this they would get help way before it took over there lifes what started as a fetish has become my disgusting life i lost all control of my destination in life when i started flooding the internet with my vile pics and vids the worst choice ive ever made was to use my real name paul greenwell on every single pic and vid making me a viral exposed sissy the